Not Quite Ready To Share My Story Yet, But Here Goes....

The day before yesterday i felt so unsafe. My past has been hard on me lately and my boyfriend of one year decided to dump me. Again. For good this time.

We love each other...but he doesnt want me. I just know he will regret this decision in the future.

There is only one me, and this time I wont let him back. Its over.


My thoughts are so jumbled...I'll try to explain in another posting later. (if anyone cares to read it)

fantasybug fantasybug
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 3, 2010

I have come to realize with my ex of 4 years that I didnt love her, but what she could have and SHOULD have been. The pain is still there and I have a sneaking suspicion it will always be but when they just decide one day that "I dont love you anymore" that there was always something in their minds causing doubt. I am still trying to pick up the pieces of my heart and it is EXTREMELY slow going and tediously painful work but every piece I find makes the ache dull just a little. I dont know how long it will take but I can tell you that while the pain and loneliness will never go away it will be easier to deal with.