It Might Be Too Late...

I'm too malnourished.  I probably wouldn't even be alive right now if it weren't for all those vitamin supplements I've been taking nearly all my life.  I've never eaten a single vegetable in my life.  Ever.  Unless you count tomatoes, and by tomatoes, I mean KETCHUP.

I also noticed that I get weaker and weaker every year even taking those vitamin supplements.  I could start eating healthy now, but I'm going to get really sick.  I ate one grape ONCE and I got so sick.  My body couldn't handle it.  I'm serious.  I eat for blueberries and I get sick as well.  And even if I do eat healthy now, I'm pretty sure it's just a little too late for that now.

I'd be lucky to live in my 30s at the rate that I'm going.  So yeah.  It would probably take a miracle to keep me alive longer.
But I don't mind.  I'm ready.  I'm not hoping I die anytime soon, but when death does come, I'll be fine with it.  Whether it's in a few years or less, I'm good to go.


deadmoon deadmoon
22-25, F
2 Responses Jul 29, 2010

:( I hope you're okay.

Dear Deadmoon, Aww, sweetheart, please don't talk like that. I am sure if you reach out for help you could find someone to get you to a healthier way of eating. I used to know a young girl, I was friends with her and she was anorexic, and bulimic, always fighting for her life. Her family was so distraught. I know you must be a beautiful young woman, and I don't know what has happened to you to make you not love yourself. But there is no one in this world who can take your place. I just feel in my heart that God is wanting so much more for you. And even though you may not love you, Jesus LOVES you more than you can know. I haven't even met you but I can say I love you with a woman's heart who has suffered much tragedy in my life. I am a compulsive over eater, and sometimes I hate myself and my addiction. It is out of my emotions that I do what I do. But I desire you to live, and I would love to talk with you. I am going to send my number to you via private mail, please call me, or allow me to call you, I want to try and help, even if it means just to listen, or say a quick prayer for you precious malnourished body. HUGS, and God Bless you Darlin' Michelle