I Am Weird..A Rant

I often question my sanity. I sometimes tend to over exaggerate situations, or so I am told. Case in point: I grew up in a toxic environment in which my parents were always screaming and fighting..there was a lot of emotional abuse occurring and I grew to think that was normal. Yet, my sister often affirms that the fact I am such a sensitive person makes me see the situation a lot worst than it was. With that said I don't know to what degree witnessing screaming, yelling ect. has affected me, but I presume a lot. When someone raises their voice I automatically find a way to hide...

These uncertainties make it difficult to commence relationships because I tend to take everything to heart, yet I yearn to be well liked..
CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
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68 Responses Aug 6, 2010

Thanks...

That doesn't make you crazy... So don't say you are... trust me when I say everyone who has grown up in that situation stands behind you because is assuring to know that you know how awful it feels like and are not likely to do the same to us. That why you are well like and always will be :)

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Exaaaaaactly! :]

Ally is not a perv..TOMMAY IS

*gasp* LIAR!

you are so way perving today!

:P I'm not perving today at all!

Aww thanks berbuletta you are my dear sweet friend who I absolutely love! :)<br />
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and hahaha ally :) that tommy

It didnt sound that way at all you are just perving today!

Geez, the way you said it made me seem like I sent you a nudey or something. x]]

heehee

it isnt gossip if it is true!

Wtf. x] Gossiping about me!

I know seriously!

hahhaa

a picture in my inbox for being so cool!

what is that?

yes well I got something else from here lol!

ally is a hell of a ninja too haha

looking forward to it ally! <br />
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naw my butt is still there as I said!

Yeah, she did, I admit. She's a tricky one, she is. :]

Muhhahaa <br />
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I am dangerous!!! I already made her share her pretty necklace

Hehehe, I will break your back! :]<br />
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You better watch out for her, Tommy, she's quite dangerous!

LMAO!!!!!!!! I lost weight too yay for getting skinnier! but she did kick yo' butt<br />
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and no I am not a stick! I have proof! My bmi says I am a healthy weight..probably at the fat end! lmao

naw my butt is still there I just lost weight was all. <br />
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Kung Fu Fudging stick is getting grr!

she kicked yo' butt<br />
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and you better stop! I am Kung Fu Fudging Panda

My hair is too short to pull, and btw this isnt how you said you was going to break my back... <br />
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YOu are kung fu freaking stick!

Yay ALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! muhahahaha

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I am NOT skinny and yes I am Kung Fu Freakin' Panda!

Hehehehe. ^___^ This is quite entertaining.<br />
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*jumps on Roar's back and pulls your hair* While she was distracting you, you were not paying attention to me! ^___^

You are skinny like a stick, and until you show me different I am going to call you stick from now on, also kung fu panda was fat. so you cant use his same power..

I am not skinny and you should be very, very scared..Kung fu panda kicked a tiger's asss in the movie so don't be surprised if me aka Kung Fu Panda can kick you, a lion's butt

I am not scared of a skinny hippiechick..

I will do the wushi finger hold and kick yo' butt

Well if you own me make sure to treat me nicely at least!

hell yea! I am kung fu panda

:]] We could totally take him down!<br />
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I have major ninja skills. I will own you, Roar. :]

heehee I agree to that uniting thing :D <br />
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Tommay is going down!

Well you missed and hit the little ninja it seems.. I dont even have to fight back with odds like this!

I wasn't hitting her! I was hitting you, Tommy! ^_^ I think if the girls gang up on you, we could take you down. x]

heehee I am going to bring out me ninja skills

That isnt very nice to hit the hippie! oh well! /victory!

>_< *punch!* I will be victorious!

I will sit on you both and claim victory!

NO I AM! hahaha lol

oh noes!<br />
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I am the strangest!

I'm sure I am the strangest of all. :]

Wait I didn't see Ally's comment until now!<br />
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HEHEE We all are the the strange trio then heheheee

I use to hurt myself a lot too. I still do hurt myself a lot.

pffffffffffffft o.k. then....

Nope you are not weird for that at all. The effects of your environment control that stuff. If you had a better environment growing up odds are you would be a totally different person. How you are reacting now is normal of what you been exposed to. You arent alone. There are a lot of us out there that are like this in some way.

I am serious.. You are not weird at all so no worries.

o.k.

yeah see I am actually the weird one here. Your reaction is pretty normal.

yea? wow.

Well I had so many kinds of abuse that it is pretty amazing I even made it out in the shape I did, but the way I reacted to it was I thought everyone hated me. I didnt learn the difference between nice and mean. So even when people was being nice I still thought they was making fun of me and being mean.

the degree of psychological abuse that the physical abuse has on someone's spirit shouldn't be taken lightly either

yeah ally is pretty damn weird so no worries! <br />
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didnt you already know that?

(: Yeah, it is always a good thing for a person to know they're not alone in what they go through.<br />
Being weird is not such a bad thing, though. :P I'm weird, and I like it. <br />
Hehe, thanks. :]<br />
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Holy crap, roar, 18 times is 18 times too many. D:

I been stabbed over 18 times within 4 years. Trust me I know about advance degees of abuse.

Actually you'd be surprised...my Mexican parents were firm believers in intense spankings but that's a whole other story<br />
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That 1.) I'm not prepared to tell<br />
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2.) Luckily, didn't by any means "scar" me

I grew up the same way just at a way more advanced level of abuse, and reacted to it differently.

haha!

eeks! lol

loud voice* RAWR!

Aww thanks allyrs! It's so nice to know there is someone out there like me whom understands where I am coming from :)<br />
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And yay for me being weird but not that weird lol<br />
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You're soooooo sweet!

I grew up in a similar environment, and I thought it was normal too. I often take things to the extreme, because that is how I grew up. When we got mad, we really got mad, and when we finally cried, we cried a lot. That's just how it was. I don't like physical fighting, or verbal fighting, and I hide from it. I can totally understand your "weird" but not really weird, rant. :]