Lost And Found, Lost In My Own Body SomedaysIts impossible to describe the feeling of feeling like your body isnt your own anymore. I grew up and developed pretty normal.
Nothing unusual, no precocious puberty or early menstration. Life was pretty straight forward until I was 19.
I got pregnant, and had a miscarriage in the 4th month. I hadnt planned on getting pregnant, but it happened.
My boyfriend of the time decided we should get away, we went snowboarding for three days. Im not a great snow boarder but
Im comfortable doing it and had been a few times. I followed him down a run that was a little beyond my ability. Long story short
I had an accident, was knocked unconcious from the force of my head snapping back so quickly, broke my patella and fractured my femur.
About 5 weeks later I noticed that my bras werent fitting so well, I was a natural full C cup. I felt like maybe I had gained some weight from being less active.
I watched my diet but out grew my bra in a month. I didnt think much of it until the next month. I noticed my new bra seemed to fit like my old ones. I sat there and stared at it thinking I must be trying to wear an old one. I had gone up another size.
I went to my Dr who sent me to my ob/gyn who sent me to several other Drs who all said it must be weight gain and my diet.
4 months and 4 cup sizes later I was diagnosed with rapid onset macromastia. Plenty of theories or areas to blame, but no real true answers. Six years later I finally feel like Im finding the puzzle pieces to who I am again.
If you have experienced half of this, I wish you the best and offer my empathy. If you have advice or experience or need a friendly outlet, I'd like you to mail me.