I Know It's Not Just Me!!!

I feel that I am always trying not be her. I don't even remember when it began but I am sure that it started around 12. I had a lot problems before that age. Abandoned by my mom. the whole bad step mom and evil step sisters cinderalla story. I got past all of the abuse and mistreatment but it started to be different at 12. See I was already had the ugly girl syndrome, the step sister problem but nothing compared to the BOY problem. I searched to be love for this boy to this. SMH not just sex but  MONEY, TIME, GOALS, my life. I lived for what ever man made me feel important and they never quite did. Now as I got older I made better men choices. but not better men. Now I seem to only get me who need from me but they don't give back SMH. I want to find my worth in me and not who is beside me....