My Grandfather Committed Suicide

Today, on the 27th of November 2012, my grandfather committed suicide. He lit fire to his car. We don't know if he took any pills before the fire reached him. I hope so. I am so furious and so heartbroken. I don't know what to do. I can't breathe. We didn't see it coming at all. He seemed fine. But I guess there were signs. A few months ago my grandparents got into major trouble economically. They had to sell a lot of things. Then, my granddad was diagnosed with cancer. We thought it was okay. That he was going to get better. No one knew how depressed he must have been. And it's so hard, because I'm incredibly angry and sad at the same time. How could he leave us? A month before Christmas! How could he do this?

I have never heard of an old person committing suicide before. How does one handle that? I wish I knew.

I hope he didn't suffer. I hope that he didn't feel the fire.

I miss you already. I will always love you.

Love,
Your granddaughter
Quendy Quendy
18-21
Nov 27, 2012