The Doctors Say My Dad Has One Year to Live.
My faher was diagnosed with lung cancer in February. He was told that he had only a year to live. I feel hopless. Everything I have read seems so dire. My dad is only 64 and had just retired.
I am trying to spend as much time with him as possible but I start to cry sometimes and have to hide it from him so he does not get upset. All I can think is this is my father's last spring. Last Christmas may have been the last I will have with him and we didn't even know.
We were watching a television documentary the other day and there was a woman suffering from lung cancer on the program. The poor woman changed from healthy to a near skeleton too weak and in pain to speak in just three months. I think she must not have taken the chemo therapy. I think that upset my father a great deal seeing that woman. I too am afraid that his fate will be like hers. I am more afraid of seeing my dad suffer than losing him.
My dad worked in a physically demanding job and always looked like a strong healthy man but he has already lost all his muscle mass. He has lost about 80% of his hair and what is left is pure white. He seems to have aged 20 years in the last few months.
Many of his friends from the past have heard that he is ill and have come to visit. I know my dad is ashamed of how he looks. He doesn't want anyone to think of him as a weak old man.
This is soo hard. I love him very much.