I spoke to "B" last night. He said, "You're ending it over one incident, forgetting about everything else we shared."
He does have a point. But I made my point too. How I was frightened, didn't understand, questioned if I shared the same values with him considering the kind of choice he made. I told him how I started going to Al-Anon to process the feelings.
What's amazing about him is that he's incredibly non-judgemental. He sees my shortcomings and so accepts them without a word. One of my major shortcomings is being very short with people, and if they offend me I just cut them off. No dialogue, nothing. I'm pretty harsh. Really harsh.
But I still don't know what I'll do. I am enjoying taking care of me, taking care of my home, having a love affair with me. Flirting and the possibility of being with someone new. I am on day 18 of my love affair with me, and Day 21 will mean I have created a habit! YAy!