Not Happy, But...

...I am eternally optimistic. My husband says I am the "Queen of Optimism". However, I have been depressed since I was a child. I am never truly happy; I become excited by things I want to do, places I want to go, etc. but rarely have an amazing, fulfilling time. I am constantly looking for a new experience, etc. I recently discovered that it is not simply that I become bored easily, but that I am never fulfilled.

I can always see the bright side of a situation, and realize things could always be worse. I am ok, my life is good. I do not complain. I know I am blessed. But please do not confuse optimism with happiness.
VendettaVita VendettaVita
31-35, F
1 Response Jul 24, 2010

I guess we all get depressed from time to time... for without experiencing what depression is how would we know the difference when we experience happiness....light and dark, night and day etc...The trick is in accepting that so it can be seen in the light of day knowing darkness is never permanent... <br />
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A reasonable analogy of this is... if you were made up of 2 rooms...and these 2 rooms were joined together by just 1 door...and one room had the light on and the other was in darkness...if that door was suddenly opened the light would instantly cut through the darkness in the other room....the dark could never cut through the light....<br />
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Is that not how our lives work too? The moment we find out why we feel depressed and release it (open the door) en - lightenment cuts through the depression (darkness) and the light remains as long as we leave it on....and we have complete control and power over that switch... :)