well this is one of my more sad story...
my little brother has depression... great... it sucks how did i find out when i was called from work by the hospital in Pittsburgh that Matt was there with cuts from depression... i punched the petal after picking up mike and Abby and matts gf ran down there burnt rubber in the parking lot and ran in...
so here i am sad... with Abby on my side sleeping mike across the room sleeping also and matt's gf sleeping next to him with a nurse coming in every half hour to poke in. i can't sleep knowing Matt tried to kill him self now i have a friend that has depression his little brother hates it at least he is getting out of it but i have talked with his little brother and i fell the SAME way its all about worried sadness and crying. so mikes car is sitting out side in the ran with the window down lol i should fix that that and my car is siting out there with a flat spot on it, with the country station slightly playing in the back ground and all i can think about day drinking thanks little big town... anyway i cant leave i cant sleep i cant stop thinking about it... why did he never tell me.... oh now the song changed YES i don't dance! this night seems just right thunder outside rain hitting the window...and there goes mike waking up god its 1 am its about time anyway i can't believe Matt i know he lies about things but i never thought depression would ever enter his life sure i have a little depression but i never think about doing what Matt tried i know i can't leave him i cant leave Abby ether. but now i have the yearly trctc(tough radio controlled truck challenge) but now i'm split to go or not i love Matt but i can't miss this one... i can't decide!!! i love Matt we have been together from the day we was born. we have pictures of us in underwear as kids we told each other everything he knows the exact measurement of my genital!!! OK!!!? yeah not joking. i changed his diapers. he covered for me when i was doing it with Abby. I CAN'T BELIEVE HE NEVER TOLD ME ABOUT THIS.
dailyracingdadboy dailyracingdadboy
26-30, M
Aug 21, 2014