I Know You Can't Fix Me

The Missing Link

By: ladyryan

Written on July 4th, 2012

I swear it's not about you, it's about me.
I have been struggling about this part of me. And I don't know where to begin, How to act upon it. Trust has become an issue for me. And I guess I am no longer capable of trusting. Anything that poses a threat for deeper emotional involvement comes the threat of being left alone someday. Taking care of myself alone, learning to move on. I have learned to cry in the rain, to find comfort with the heartaches which made me strong.
Let me be, and leave me with a quiet mind. Don't accuse me of being unfair, taking it all to my terms. Or not even giving the chance to doubt about your sincerity. Giving us the chance to reach out. But the truth is I doubt endlessly, I doubt about your goodness, I doubt about myself.
I am just tired, exhausted.

By: ladyryan

Age: 41-45 , Female

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18 responses

sierra33

I loved the raw honesty in this...No one can ever fix any of us....Time, healing and knowing how we feel do a lot more. You sound like a realist and that is always good...Doesn't always make the road ahead smoother but it does help us see what is ahead and right in front of us. I hope you find what you're looking for and enjoy it for a lifetime.... :)

Jul 10, 2012
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- ladyryan
  I so agree. I hope to find him worth the trust. Thanks Sierra for sharing in your thoughts.
  
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justhow

I know no one can fix me. I live with cronic deppression. It never goes away. I feel there is nothing to live for. If I could find Quality H today I would end it all. I hate myself, my life, and my circumstances. I hope that you are strong enough and young enough to work through it. It only gets harder as you get older. I wish you joy and happiness.

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  Oh Justhow, thanks for the warm comment. I wish you all the joy and happiness. You deserve it yourself.
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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leantannedguy

You are a strong person already and this will make you stronger. I believe time heals many wounds and know that love will find you again - you are rtoo much of a beautiful person for others not to see what is so clear to me. In the meantime you can use my shoulder to rest your head while my arms hold you close and give you some comfort.

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  Oh my! you're a sweetheart! Thanks Guy.^^
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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2011A

This is eloquent. I love it. Thank you. Just rest. You will regain what you lost eventually...

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  Thank you 2011A. Thank you for the kind words. (^-^). . . for writing in.
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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- 2011A
  Lady Ryan-You are a fine poet! xoxoxo
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  Oh wow, thanks! Really thanks.(^v~)/
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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dilfek2010

every time you are at cross road.. just listen to your heart and do what it says

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  You're always nice to me. Thanks Dilfek.
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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emce

Thanks for sharing this intimate part of you.

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  Thanks to you Emce.
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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Cheyenne527

How beautifully written...your emotions so well explained,

Thank you !

The rain is comforting.

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  Aww Chey, thanks for the kind words.
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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NeoZen

Is right there with you.

Jul 4, 2012
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- ladyryan
  I thought so. I just need to connect. Thanks for reading Neo.
  
  Jul 4, 2012
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