The Missing Link

I swear it's not about you, it's about me.
I have been struggling about this part of me. And I don't know where to begin, How to act upon it. Trust has become an issue for me. And I guess I am no longer capable of trusting. Anything that poses a threat for deeper emotional involvement comes the threat of being left alone someday. Taking care of myself alone, learning to move on. I have learned to cry in the rain, to find comfort with the heartaches which made me strong.
Let me be, and leave me with a quiet mind. Don't accuse me of being unfair, taking it all to my terms. Or not even giving the chance to doubt about your sincerity. Giving us the chance to reach out. But the truth is I doubt endlessly, I doubt about your goodness, I doubt about myself.
I am just tired, exhausted.
ladyryan ladyryan
46-50, F
4 Responses Jul 4, 2012

I loved the raw honesty in this...No one can ever fix any of us....Time, healing and knowing how we feel do a lot more. You sound like a realist and that is always good...Doesn't always make the road ahead smoother but it does help us see what is ahead and right in front of us. I hope you find what you're looking for and enjoy it for a lifetime.... :)

I so agree. I hope to find him worth the trust. Thanks Sierra for sharing in your thoughts.

I know no one can fix me. I live with cronic deppression. It never goes away. I feel there is nothing to live for. If I could find Quality H today I would end it all. I hate myself, my life, and my circumstances. I hope that you are strong enough and young enough to work through it. It only gets harder as you get older. I wish you joy and happiness.

Oh Justhow, thanks for the warm comment. I wish you all the joy and happiness. You deserve it yourself.

every time you are at cross road.. just listen to your heart and do what it says

You're always nice to me. Thanks Dilfek.

Is right there with you.

I thought so. I just need to connect. Thanks for reading Neo.