Sunshine After The Fog

I have had a lot of things happen in my life that could have pushed me over the edge and I will openly admit that I have planned my own suicide in the past.  I have been there, done that, and wrote the suicide letter. :(  In fact it is posted in another group here. I am not certain what made me stop and realize that suicide was not the way to go but I do know that I had a friend that was there for me and he listened to my problems with depression.  So no, I am not depressed at this time and I haven't been clinically depressed in quite a long time but I do know how it feels to wake up and not care that you have just woke up,  I do know how it feels not to care if you stop breathing and can never draw another breath. I do know how it feels to be in the fog and feel like you can't get past it. I have been there and know it firsthand. I have just been luckier than most to overcome the trials that have come my way in life. So today I hold my head high and smile because I am a survivor.

fungirlmmm fungirlmmm
46-50, F
Feb 27, 2010