I Don't Understand

Why did you go to all that trouble to make me believe you loved me? I mean, crying on the phone with me, Walking 2 hours in the rain to come see me for half an hour, buying me things with the only money you had. What was the reason for all of that pretending?

It obviously had nothing to do with sex. You found out on our second date that it wasn't going to happen anytime soon. And the first time it happened, seven months later, you stopped me to make sure I was sober, and completely aware, and that it was exactly what I wanted. That's a nice touch if it was really all you were after.

Was it because I was friends with your ex? No, that doesn't make any sense. You found out before our first date that we hadn't talked in years. We were only friends in the first place because there was nothing better to do.

It's not because I'm a "catch". I mean, I had a good paying job when we first met, but you stuck with me long after that was over. And I really don't have anything else going for me.

The only thing I can possibly think of is that you actually do love me. But if that's the case, then why all the ****? Why are you treating me so different now? Why don't you even seem to care anymore?

garbanzobean garbanzobean
22-25, F
Feb 22, 2009