It's Up to You Now

During the last part of our relationship, you spent the entire time trying to tell me to "get my stuff together". One of the reasons we broke up was because you thought I was being childish by acting like a teenager, which, hey, guess what, I am.

When I saw and talked to you today, for the first time in four months, you seemed so much more mature then you were the entire time we were going out. Which is good. You're about to be 21, you don't have much time left to mature. You stopped driving your van since you couldn't afford the insurance, where 6 months ago you had no problem driving on a suspended license. You offered to take care of what you took the only way you could, where 6 months ago- well, you took it. You admitted to seeming to **** everyone off, where before you insisted that the other people were the problem, not you.

You've been growing, but I've been changing. You're still working at a job you hate, crashing on people's couches and paying as little rent as possible. And the only things you aspire to are not getting yourself kicked out of the place you live currently, having enough money at the end of the week to go drinking, and not having your van towed. Whereas I'm trying to make my life better. I've figured out where I need to be, and it's not here. So after this semester of college, and once my family has stabilized financially again, I'm leaving this state, and making my own life.

So here's the deal. You say you want me back, show me. You've got until I leave at the end of may to let me know that you weren't just saying that to keep my dad from killing you. If you do tell me, this is what I'm going to tell you: Prove it. You know where I'll be. Learn the art of saving money, maybe find a job that pays a little bit more, and get the insurance back on the van. Then come see me. I'm actually making a life for myself, come be a part of it where it is, and we'll go from there.

garbanzobean garbanzobean
22-25, F
5 Responses Mar 20, 2009

wow this is awesome! so empowering. good for you

No, it was a different guy. Lol.

You are a strong one - excellent.<br />
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Hey, Im curious, were you dating Matt Foley? Or is this some <i><b>other</i></b> guy living in a van down by the river?

PROPS!!<br />
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you really know what you deserve. dont settle for any less!

Good for you!