Day 43

Creepy right? well if you didn't know any better and came across this story yeah.

I don't know what's wrong with me lately, I have a short fuse, I have no patience, I can't seem to keep my mind on anything for very long, and Rude?!? yeah.

I'm blaming it on Chantix, PMS, and IMS. ? oh yeah Irritable Male Syndrome. I wonder if this medication ***** with my hormone levels. Not that it was ever a problem before this I was even. You know always laid back and happy, satisfied with life. Now I keep dealing with this whole short temper, and when it gets the worst, like today, I get depressed on top of it.

I'm not used to feeling this way. It makes me miss you more. I get all emotional over it. I don't usually cry in front of people and this is going to be one of those days if I sit here much longer. You have no internet, so I can't see if you're alive to the world via technology.

Seriously, part of me knows it is the medication, but I honestly don't feel blaming it on chantix absolves me. So on behalf of my jackass self, I'm apologizing to everyone I've been short with, rude to, and assorted various bitchy behavior. If I'm wrong (and I hope I am) then nicotine and whatever the hell else they put in cigarettes is addictive as hell. (See what I mean? from fine to sad, then angry that's been my entire day every few minutes.)

Thank you for helping to keep me sane lately. I don't know what I'd do otherwise. Oh, and if I get rude feel free to tell me off.
zunderwo zunderwo
36-40, M
Jul 11, 2010