i just lost my post and i'm not motivated to rewrite it. everything takes too much energy right now and all i want to do is eat and sleep,but i've got bills that need to have checks written and mailed out...and i'm too depressed to even do that. but i'm trying to avoid crawling into bed and then being totally useless for several more hours. i might be useless anyway,but my chances are a little better if i'm sitting on the couch. sigh.