I Wish I Could Be Proud Of My Body

I wish I could be proud of my body or feel confident at all, but I don't... I'm 4'10 and 18 years old, whenever anyone looks at me I always fear they look at me and think I'm just a startled looking child. I know I shouldn't feel this way because I'm a natural 32H or J, depending on shop and make, which people consider quite large, but I'm not even confident about them I still feel just small and child like.

 The problem is it's getting to the point that's it's affecting my relationships, I've been with my boyfriend now for 5 years and I can't even look myself in the mirror, I was actually more confident when I was a 32C because I knew I was about average then but now I just feel frumpy, I've gone as far as to remove all the mirrors from my home because I can barely face what I see. I often lock myself away on my own just so that I don't have to face people and wonder what they're thinking... I'm sick of feeling like a child.
kattykins kattykins
18-21, F
Jul 29, 2010