I Lack Self-confidence
I have always had a self-confidence problem. Throughout grade school, I was made fun of alot because I was not like a lot the other kids. I had braces, glasses, and the whole nine yards. I was dorky and nerdy and still am to this day. People would tell me that I am useless, I am nothing, and alot of other mean words, which affected my self confidence. I believe alot of what they said. Even after I met the friend that would change my whole life, I still didnt have any self confidence. In high school, everyone knew and I knew them. I was one of the smartest kids in my grade, which you would think would help me have self-confidence, it did not believe one bit. Even after being inducted into National Honor Society, my 10th year of high school, it did not still help. It bought my self-confidence down because I felt that I had to live up to everyone expections, if I did not, I would feel like a failure. In high school, I was manager of the Boys Varsity Basketball Team, for 3 seasons, I had a lot fun but still did not give me any self confidene. Everything great that has happened to me, it still has not done anything to bring up your self-confidence. This past semester in college, I did not as well as I should have, which bought my self-confidence even more. I have to wake up every morning, that I did not live up to everyones and my expections, which leaves a sour taste in my mouth. This past September, I was diagonsed with Aspergers, which is a form of autism. It is something I am very self cautious. I am afraid to tell people that I have it because I am afraid of being made fun of, which will self-confidence down even more. Overall, I have a problem with gaining self-confidence.
That is my story. Thanks!!
