Just Laugh

I don't want to turn into that woman who doesn't trust anyone, just because she's been betrayed a few times. But, I'm turning into her anyway. And as I turn into her, I stop not wanting to turn into her. I've stepped into the cold water and let it surround me. At first it hurts, but then I'm numb. Just don't think about it. Don't talk about it. Laugh. Hug my children. Life just goes by, whether I'm happy or not. The good times are fleeting, but so are the bad times. Most times are just -- times -- getting by. The happiness comes sometimes. My kid will snuggle up to me. I'll taste a perfect mango. I'll find comfy sexy shoes on sale in my size. It bursts through the numbess to let me know I'm alive. No more seeking, analyzing, wondering, worrying. Just going to laugh. That is my goal.

Fallflower Fallflower
41-45, F
3 Responses Jul 26, 2010

I've pretty much turned into that guy a lot of the time.

Glad you get it Scoobs. Not sure if I really get it :P

Yeah. I get it. So much is no fun any more.