Sadness

I learned that people may if experienced things you never thought they would of. I was talking to by boyfriend the other day and he told me about why he can't sleep. He sits at night awake by his thoughts. That's what he tells me often. But I know that truth. He told me one day that there is one dream that comes to him every week...and it's not a good one. He doesn't sleep because he's afraid of his dreams. I understand it. I also never knew he had seen so much as a child. He told me about his bestfriend in second grade. He watched him get hit my a car...in SECOND GRADE. It made me think of how unfair it was. About what some people go through. I learned that feeling bad about something doesn't make it better. As his girlfriend o felt I wasn't doing a good job showing that I Cared about him. So I was sad. I shut everything out that day. But as I walked past him he said to me "It doesn't hurt to smile"...I almost turned around and hugged him then and there but I didnt....until later when he wrote me a long paragraph saying how m loved my smile and wanted to see it again. That was when I realized that I was saying I was sad because I couldn't show him I cared....but all he wanted was to see me smile. So why wouldnt I smile? Hes taught me so much...it's why I live him and i always want to be there for him.....starting with those nights he lie awake when he could be sleeping peacefully by my side