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The Grass Is Greener

Hello my EP friends!
I remember when I was planning on leaving my SM, I wished that there were stories on here about life on the other side. I wanted to know if the grass was really on the other side. Well, it is not only greener, I can see all kinds of flowers.

Yesterday, I met up with some of those flowers, aka, EP friends in my area. There are definitely some budding friendships (pun intended) This was the third time and I think it is now a monthly thing. We usually meet for lunch and chit chat for a couple of hours. Yesterday we were the last people in the restaurant to leave. I think we all had a lovely time. During lunch one friend was talking about his situation when another said to him "man, you are ******". Another friend said "****** is exactly was he is not". That moment was priceless! I had not laughed so hard in a long time.

Anyways, back to my story. It has been almost 5 months since I left and I have no regrets. I know I did the right thing. Walking away from the man I loved was the most heart wrenching thing I have ever had to do. But I did it. Looking back, I can see that it took tremendous strength. I guess that means that I am a strong woman. I am so proud of myself.

I often wonder if I would ever love again. If what I want really exists. If a man would love me for who I really am. If the day would come when I would not feel so much like damaged goods. But my good friend Chai, says, "it exists, you will see". So I wait with great anticipation

So after years of rejection, neglect and emotional abuse, I now feel hopeful, happy and excited. I dont feel the latter all day, everyday, but I certainly no longer feel rejected, neglected and abused.

I look forward to loving and being love again.

Yes,in my opinion, the grass is greener on the other side and one day in spring I am hoping to pick some flowers.
newdawn07 newdawn07 41-45, F 4 Responses Feb 26, 2012

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Well said... I hold that hope as well.

oh, i am so happy for you. i am in similar situation, 10 years your senior. sometimes i'm nervous, re divorce and finances, but at least the door is open now to creating happiness. thanks for sharing!

Inspiring thank you

Newdawn,<br />
That is great to hear as i am on my way out of a sexless marriage and the sexless part isn't even half the problem! I am moving into my mom's house just a few block from where i live now. I will probably have to get a second job to pay my wife's support but my freedom, dignity, and self preservation are worth the sacrifice. I will also have to continue online grad school but the is the least of my problem as my time will be my own to manage for once.