And I Wish You Would, Too

I let you in because I trust you. I got to know you, and I chose to trust you and to let you into my life, and into my mind. I chose to let you see the things I can't show anyone else. The things that have gotten me hurt when I showed them to someone else before. It took me some time, but I want you to know that I'm serious here. I believe we could very well be something special. Something built to last. So I took some time to see what my intuition told me about you, and when it gave me a green light, I let my guard down. Just like that. Which, unfortunately, isn't something you can just do.

You're different from me. I see that, I respect that, I understand that, I love that. You are not made for giving your trust away easily. You're cautious, because you're prone to thinking people are out to hurt you. And even though I don't work that way, I'll have to admit that some probably are. Some people are out to hurt other people. But honey, I'm not. I'm really not.

You have given me very much already. You've let me see a very big part of yourself, and I love you for it. I know that you love being with me and that most of you doesn't believe I would ever hurt you. But there's still that part of you that thinks I would. That part that thinks everyone will once you let them in. You told me about that part, about how much it frustrates you. I know it's not just me, I know that part bothers you with every friendship you have and every relationship you've ever been in. I understand, and I don't resent it. It's going to take time, and I'm willing to give it to you. As long as you're honest with me, I will give you all the time you need.

But that doesn't still mean I don't wish that you could turn off that part of yourself. Because I do love you. And I really wish you could see it.
TheRealJade TheRealJade
18-21, F
Mar 3, 2012