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I Let Someone In

And Then They Walked Out

By: ShrubberySoup
Written on July 6th, 2009

It hurt, still hurts and it makes me a little worried about doing it again. I know that not every man will treat me like he did, but I also know that I can't deal with that level of pain again.

I can handle being dumped, I just can't handle the way he did it, and it scares me to think if I let someone else that close to me the same thing may happen again.

Seriously, loneliness feels 100 times better than the hurt he caused me, I'd rather be alone then feel that again, but I don't really want to be alone either.

By: ShrubberySoup
Age: 26-30 , Female
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10 responses
  • WindSweptCowboy
    WindSweptCowboy

    I hate that he hurt you, but I love that you are so sensitive and precious.

    Aug 19, 2011
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  • ShrubberySoup
    ShrubberySoup

    It's hard to pinpoint an exact date since he didn't give me any heads up that he was dumping me, he just stopped talking to me. But I've known for absolute sure that it's over for about, mmm, maybe 2 or 3 weeks, I think. It could be a bit more or less, but I think that's about right.

    Jul 8, 2009
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  • ShrubberySoup
    ShrubberySoup

    Thank you. I'm trying not to be hard on myself, I think the worst part is just wishing it would all end and I wouldn't care anymore, but I'm not sure what chance I have of that happening. Some days are harder than others, some days I'm sure he's not coming back and I'm fine with it, other days I'm not so OK with it, then I have days when I truly believe that one day (hopefully soon) he'll show up again and then I'm not sure what result I hope to get with that, us back together or just closure and the ability to move on. Ah, every days a new day and a new emotional adventure.

    Jul 8, 2009
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  • ShrubberySoup
    ShrubberySoup

    Thank you all so much for your comments and support, it's really helped as today was a bit rough, I miss him a lot, last night I hated him, today I don't know how I feel. Thank you all.

    Jul 7, 2009
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  • kjfox04
    kjfox04

    It's always amazing to me how time heals. I'm sorry you are hurting; I've been there and agree it's the worst feeling to experience! It sounds like you will be okay. Stay strong (and that does not mean don't cry)!

    Jul 7, 2009
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  • debysboys27
    debysboys27

    So sorry about the way that he did it. You do show a lot



    of strength. Not trying to be nasty, but what goes



    around comes around!!!

    Jul 7, 2009
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  • ShrubberySoup
    ShrubberySoup

    Thank you.

    Jul 6, 2009
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  • denverguy
    denverguy

    I know my words are only words and nothing said will comfort the way you feel. At least you know you will be ok in time! That is a good step and a sign of a woman with some strength. Be proud of yourself for that.

    Jul 6, 2009
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  • ShrubberySoup
    ShrubberySoup

    Thanks, I'm hoping that once I'm fully over him then I'll be able to get back out there again. Only time will tell.

    Jul 6, 2009
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  • denverguy
    denverguy

    That is the reason why I do my best to stay friends with a girl as long as possible before a relationship begins. Then she has time to know me and I have time to trust her.



    I am sorry this happened to you. Never give up though and dare to dream!

    Jul 6, 2009
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