I Am Sorry...

I lied when I told you that I was fine, and there was nothing wrong. I lied when I told you there was nothing bothering me, and that I was just tired, and had a headache. I lied when I put the smile on, and acted like it was all going to be okay. I am sorry I lied, I just don't know how to tell you what is wrong, and even more, I know telling you is no use, because you would just want to fix it, and sadly what is bothering me can't be fixed......

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4 Responses Jan 19, 2010

I wish I could express myself better.

many hugs*

But I've found that there are people, here who will understand that something can't be fixed...and that they can love you anyway. And it helps a lot.

Well said. I do this all the time. Its not a good habit to be in. I'm trying to not do it so much. It surprises me for some reason, just how understanding people can be. Still, sometimes I just don't want to talk about it...yet.