Lonely Midnight Ramblings

Every single night I cant sleep because of the pain of being alone. Did you know that your brain processes the emotional pain of heartache/being alone as PHYSICAL pain, not emotional pain? Mine is very bad. It usually starts 2 to 3 hours before I go to bed every night, then I lay there awake, unable to sleep because of how sad I am from the loneliness and how bad it hurts, for a few more hours. I always wake up exhausted and sometimes even depressed. Waking up depressed is the worst feeling in the world, even more than being alone. I haven't gotten a good night's sleep since middle school, which was around 9 years ago. I often times think about losing my virginity and being a ***** just so I'm not alone. I know that that is stupid, and sex isn't love, but when having NOTHING hurts this bad, a warm body in bed is SOMETHING, which is better than nothing ): Good luck my fellow EP goers who are tortured by a difficult life.
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18-21, F
Jan 24, 2013