The Start Of Something New

Maybe this is stupid... maybe this will be good. I'm not much of a writer but I have wanted to do something like this for awhile now. Sometimes i just need to get things out there... and of course i am on facebook, who isnt? but i don't really like to write about how i am feeling or put personal thoughts out there for people who know me to see. I'd rather put it out there for strangers.

sometimes i can't stop myself from thinking. Every once in awhile i get a feeling that something is missing. And then i will hear music and realize that its been awhile since i heard any.

Anyone who knows me will know how ridiculous this sounds because i have never been without music... I fear that when i lost my bestfriend i lost the wanting for music. Music controls my emotions. It can make me cry and it can make me so happy and so angry one after another .
I think that maybe ive been going so long without wanting to listen to anything because it makes me feel and i havent wanted to do that.

it's come to the point that anytime i do feel anything i just end up in tears. whether from happiness or not. I haven't felt like myself for a long time now. I'm not sure if i ever will again.
amanda516 amanda516
26-30, F
Dec 3, 2012