I Like My Old (girl) Best Friend . And I'm A Girl.

Hi, you can call me Steph. I was 12 years old (now i'm 13), after arguing with my old best friend and not speaking for weeks (we were really close, really close! We were always together, until she started drifting apart to the popular crowd. But that's not what this is about.) Our kind of mentor made us Make Up, I had so much anger of how she can throw away everything, but noticing she actually CARED made me get weird feelings. (Lets Call Her Amy) When I hugged her I felt weird, but I just shook it off. When I went to the mall with my sister later on, she left a message on my phone saying ''Hi Steph, I just want you to know I am happy that we are friends again, I hope we go back to how we used to be. Maybe we can plan something for our birthdays or so? Well alright just call me at (insert number here, as if I forgot her number! Lol) okay bye.'' Thats when I felt HAPPY, I was Smiling. From that day, I think I started LIKING her.

A week later I think, she found out I liked a girl (for the first time!) and kept on wondering who. She messaged me on FB saying how much she loves me as a friend and blah. I felt even more happy. But then she CLAIMED to like me (she also told me she is bi), I know she was probably just saying that cause she thought I liked her. I saw her kiss our friend Shannon on the cheek, and she saw me staring, and kissed me on the cheek. But she found out I liked her later on, and said it was obvious.
I Said Prove that you like me and what-not so I know she is not lying. Trust me she proved it when we went out to celebrate her birthday. S She kissed me in the dark bathroom (a peck) because I never had my first kiss, she said ''do you want your first kiss now?''. After this we did more pecks and argued even more. Now we are regular, and I really want to go farther with her, but she has a boyfriend and still does this. And I'm pretty sure he doesn't care or know. I don't want to get into the drama. I keep feeling weird around her now, and I also like this boy, but I want her MORE. Which is weird, because I never thought of myself liking a girl. But I just WANT HER right Now ? I want to actually have her KISS me, not a PECK. A kiss! What can I do to make her know this? Any help?
imfreegee imfreegee
26-30, F
May 19, 2012