I Don't Feel Anything.

I don't know if we'd be good together...if we were ever together. Sometimes you make me so happy and we have loads of fun together. But sometimes, around you...I feel numb. Is that because I'm getting over you? I don't think so...but I wouldn't know, I never feel anything anymore. I don't what to say, I don't know what to do, I just know I can't stand it anymore...I want to tell you that I love you and I need to hear a reply. I need to know your genuine reaction, not one fabricated for the sake of giving a reply.
I wish we were close. As much as you make me glad I'm alive and here with you, I wish I was a better person, just so you felt I'm worth telling your secrets. I want to know what made you who you are, I want to help you with your problems and I want to mean something to you. Because if I don't, I feel like I have no purpose.
And if I could just hold you once...I'd never forget that moment. Knowing that you care about me is all I need.
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Feb 12, 2012