My Boyfriend Is In Jail....I'm a 16year old girl and my boyfriend is 24 and is in prison for the second time. When i met him last year ,he had just come out for the first time. He and my ex best friend came knocking at my window at 4am , he was also one of my ex close friends cousin. At first i wasn't at all attracted to him , he had a very nice face but i wasn't interested in boys. But a few weeks later , i was with him and have been ever since. But it hasn't been easy , he has been in prison for 5months and since he's been in there he's changed... for the better but i don't know if he's just using me. Because before he went inside , he was with different girls, and i don't know if he's just using me while he's in there , because i do everything for him, Or if he is genuine. I don't go out anymore because he gets paranoid and thinks i'm going to cheat , when i have never during our relationships. And i've stopped talking to alot of my friends. He can really manipulate me and I hate it. And i've always said to myself i would never let a guy walk over me , and i didn't want a serious relationship at my age , but at the time he came in to my life , i was going through a really bad time , my parents where separting , my mum has health problems which mean i mainly have to look after myself , and lot's of other things so i tried to take my life. And even though at the beginning i make him sound bad ,he has another side , he was so gentle and he'd listen to me for hours and hours and advise me and wipe my tears dry. I feel as though i attached myself so quickly to him though becuse all the men in my life had left , i don't mean boyfriends ,i mean family members. And for those of you who think we were having a sexual relationship , we didn't for a while , he never forced me into anything. I blame alot of him on going to prison on his surrondings , he hung around with people that he shouldnt of, and i tried to warn him but he didn't listen. And the night i went away on holiday was the night he got put in prison, he was charged with drink driving and other past convictions such as car robbery. I accepted it , and said i would stand by him , it's 5months along the line now and im still with him he has another 8months left. I believe he can be a really good person , my family love him , he had a hard upbringing and everyone he loved left and it left him with low confidance, i have so much faith in our relationship , to prove to him were not all the same. (Because he is french) he was in the army when he was a bit younger and was in a long term relationship with a english girl who cheated on him with his two best friends ) . I write to him every week and speak everyday on the phone , and sometimes he calls me crying and i comfort him the best i can , i tell him this is only a bad stage of his life and it will pass and get better you've just got to stay strong. I try and stay strong for both of us, but i've had a lot of stuff going on since he's left , i left school because of personnel problems and my mum recently chucked me out . I know everything will get better eventually , and a year from now it will all just be a distant memory , i just hope that its sometime soon. I'm not a selfish person , i would do anything for my mum and my family even now , I would put them before myself. I have learnt to mature in an unbelievable way this past year , which has made me stronger , un selfish and more understanding , i understand a lot more what life is about. And I'm starting an apprentiship in 2months , i wan't to make something of myself so i don't have to rely on other people , cause that way you can't get disappointed. My boyfriend also has a soon , who he doesn't see much and i told him that as soon as he's out i want him to go and see him , and make an effort , that it should be him his priorty because he is the innocent child in all of this and that he should be his motivation to grow up and make something of himself , he is a beautiful little boy and is the image of my boyfriend ,he should com before me and anyone , i'm really going to encourage to do so . I speak to his parents regularly too. I wan't to proove to everyone that you can acheive anything if you want it enough.
Luucianna 18-21, F 17 Responses 1 Mar 5, 2012