Irony

 I find the solace on the moment of being alone.

That when I close my eyes I felt like drifting away from this place I forget about everything…

It’s like a calm beach where waves gently kiss the shore as I watched the sky turned fiery red till it will turn black to sparkle amongst the stars.

There is soothing silence and comforting moment to get to know that someone underneath the disguise.

 When I am alone, I feel free.  No worries, no fear, and no pretensions just being me doing the things I want to do, thinking good thoughts about myself, and enjoying the instance of self recognition.

  But when I opened my eyes and see no one around.  I feel like a corpse, cold and abandoned.  It will always remind of that I am just but an empty barrel.

Somehow though I wanted to have someone to lean on specially for the moment like this, to giggle at some jokes, to cry my innermost feeling, to crack lame jokes and laugh, to listen and to share some moments eating ice cream. :(