Affectionately Yours;

Despite my misgivings, I am alive.
Despite your delusions, I am real.
I still remember every promise that you broke.
I can't forget every sweet little lie that you spoke.
I still feel every emotion you evoke.
And I'd really like to be there when you finally choke.

I stepped foot in that empty room.
A place I'd been a thousand times before.
White walls with no texture, textile carpet from the schoolhouse.
Above me the fan circled endlessly.
I thought I was alone here.
I thought...

I cut the rope that tied me down,
Saved myself so I wouldn't drown.
But it's not me, it's not me, I was never real.
I feel what you feel.
I was never born.
Somehow recall every mask I've ever worn.
It's not me, it's not me, I was never alive.
I'll never arrive!

Take a seat, please turn your attention to the screen.
You see?
Watch closely now.
Here we go again.
Could it be?

What are you smiling for?
Are you waging some kind of personal war?
Look at what you've done to your friend!
What the hell is wrong with you, where does the carnage f***ing end?
Put down the gun, just run away.
Tonight you'll live to love another day.

For God's sake, get up.
It wasn't me, it was you.
So here's your standing ovation! Tonight's an occasion!
It's all about you!
I've had my chance to play.
But my time is up and it's your turn to try.

Despite your misgivings, I was never alive.
But I'm still moving, I still survive.
Despite your delusions, I am not real.
But that never meant I can't feel what you feel.
CatalystKasper CatalystKasper
18-21, M
Dec 1, 2012