College Girl In Pull UpsI am in college, and live a regular life. I don't think I have any weird aspect of me either. But have always wanted the chance to wear diapers or pull ups again. When I was little I would wet my bed in hopes my mom would introduce me to pull ups since I wore plastic washable diapers when I was a baby, but it never worked. I used to steal my little cousins diapers, pull ups, Good Nites, (since I have always been pretty small I could still fit) anything I could and wear them, pee and then sit around in them, I love looking at the ruffled cuff around my legs and the bulge it creates. When I got my license I bought some Good Nites for girls, the ones that fit up to 125 lbs, and started to wear them to bed and then pee in them when I had to and hide them from my mom. I was scared of how I would throw them away though so would always double bag them and throw them in the trash outside or at dumpsters in front of businesses. I couldn't get enough of them and soon tried pooping and I loved the bulge that the poop created, the squish of it between my cheeks, and the mess it made.
I love to lay infront of a floor length mirror and recreate me getting diapered, wipes, new pull up on, then putting tight panties on top so that the ruffled cuffs show, but the bulge doesn't show in jeans and shorts too much so I can go out in public, plus the tightness of the panties makes sure to hug the diaper or pull up against my skin so I can feel the wetness. I went to class today with a size 6 baby diaper, underwear, and leggings on, but had to wear shorts over them so people couldn't see the bulge. The diaper didn't fit lengthwise so at first I was going to wear two and kind of double it up in the middle but the bulge was too noticeable.I resorted to using that diaper, wearing it till it was time to go in, and at the last minute in the parking lot I pulled it off. It felt so great that I was distracted the whole time. I went to the bathroom and knowing that I had to "change my diaper" excited me so much that after wards I went straight to Walgreens to buy some Good Nites that fit me better. I couldn't even wait to go home. I drove to a dark corner and put them on with just my leggings on top so I could see the bulge better, and peed. I filled it up so much that I wet thru the pull up and even my pants were soaking wet and my seat was too. I put another pull up on over the first one and finished peeing. I tried so hard to poop but couldn't.
All I could think about for about an hour was pooping. I like the feeling of it being in public and not behind closed doors the most I think. As soon as I got home I sat in front of the mirror and just stared and fantasized about someone else putting a diaper and baby powder on me. I like the bulge and squish against my privates. I still couldn't poop. I put on a new pull up and went pee again. I wanted to poop so bad that I resorted to squirting Hershey's Chocolate Syrup all over in the inside of my already peepeed pull up and pulled it back up. It squished and looked like poop if I spread my legs "to check for poop" like parents do on babies. I even "checked for poo poo" by pulling the pull up away from my back. The brown on my back and privates got me excited. I tried to poop for real so bad and finally did, but it was barely any and didn't even squish thru my crack like I was hoping for all night. I changed myself again and showered only to step out and diaper myself with a fresh pull up like a big girl would on the pull up commercials. I used one of the size 6 baby diapers (they didn't fit) on top of the pull up and used the back of it (with the tape sides) and taped it to the front of the pull up and used regular tape to tape the front underneath my butt so that when I looked down I saw baby designs and it actually looked like a real diaper.
I want to find some big diapers with baby designs that tape in front like a real baby diaper, not the fasteners on adult diapers that are available. I am in bed now, with a wet diaper and it feels so good. I made sure to drink a lot of water so that I will wake up in the middle of the night, only to pee and warm my privates with my pee then go back to sleep, and hopefully do the same thing in the morning. Good thing I doubled up so I don't leak all over my bed.
Am I weird for wanting and having these thoughts? It just feels so good against me and I like the look. But I can't tell my friends and family or they will not talk to me and think I have gone crazy. I mean after all I am 23, and been out of diapers for like 21 years now.