OK, big girls are curvy girls, shy is pretty sexy, and you get to pick who you talk to here, and who you ignore! Add me to your circle, I'd like to talk to you about some fun things! BTW, for free,fun stories, try www.literotica.com, the stories are all contributed by readers, and they are indexed by sexual interest, like exhibitionism, first time, romance, bondage, etc...dropyertop
You may be just a little fat, but hit the tavern late and find a stud that has beer goggles on. Have some fun. Once you drop to your knees and take their load, you WILL get what you want and need.
Try to find the person that understands you and you want to spend the rest of you life with like I have. It is just a suggestion. You can read my stories they might help you. My wife (lululee) has better styories I think.