From the Past

I am single now but in the past I was with a really beautiful man... I don't want to say his name so in place of his real name I'll call him Jason.  He was very passionate, and deep and very sexy.  We had such a chemistry and I remember one evening when he really opened up to me about his life and it was such a beautiful moment for us.   He and I were sitting on the sofa listening to Dirty Dancing songs, and there was soft lighting and we had some wine.  He was talking about how he felt about me, and I was really surprised and flattered about how deep it went for him.  At first I just listened and let him hold my hand and everything.  Me and Jason, we did a lot together, we laughed and loved and we had the same love of music and life and everything, it was like meeting a soulmate.  He was talking about all this and he got so emotional, saying he'd never felt loved like this before and I could tell he was sincere.  Well he put his arm around me and I was snuggling up to him and feeling his chest rise and fall softly, and he was gently stroking my hair, and I felt his chest wretching.  I looked up to see him in tears and at first I thought something was wrong, but he assured me he was just emotional because of the moment and only had a fear of losing me.. which I thought was lovely of him to say...

I hugged him and assured him I had no intention of leaving and I really didn't.  I wiped a single tear from his cheek and told him how much I loved him too.  I really miss him and I never thought we'd ever break up.  A complicated story and a complicated man...