I Like Older Guys
Ever since "pretty woman" and "lolita" and "damage" i was into older men, but my age requirements are strict: only after 40, not younger, and i guess 56 is the upper limit. i was lucky enough to fulfill my fantasy, i was involved with a man who was 45 but married and i was very young... very, 14-15, but trust me i was sooo ready for it (plus we never had "real" intercourse, but we did everything but...), during that period i had multiple crushes on older guys: my friends' dads and teachers, so that experience was a dream come true. unfortunately he was married, and i really seduced him : i was too inspired by "lolita", lol. but i was tortured by guilt, because his wife was a nice woman, and i knew his daugther, who was my age... actually i wasn't really tourtured by guilt, more like i was mad on myself for NOT feeling guilty, and having no emotions of remourse whatsoever.. so i thought i wasn't normal, and forced myself to feel bad...so after "fulling around" with him for about a year, there was an opportunity to break it off, without actually confronting him (because it didn't work, he didn't want to stop seeing me), basically i pretended that my family found out and acted like i couldn't see him anymore.
but now that i'm older, and more "experienced" and therefore should probably get over that childlish fantasy, from time to time i ran into the hot piece, who fits the profile perfectly - has sault-and-pepper hair, over 42, tall, business man, i just want to stare and remember his features perfectly, even though i'll never think of him again. it's just like a masterpiece for me. and it's funny that i'm not turned on by young, built, perfect-face guys... it's this quiet power of older business man.
i remember i accedently met executives in a bar when they invited me and a friend over their table, and then a ceo was begging me to start dating him, i couldn't cause i had a boyfriend. and then another time (recently) a president of multiple companies bought me and a friend a drink and also was trying to pursuade me to forget about my boyfriend... and although i'm pretty cute, and good-looking and have an ok body, i'm not at all the "model" type, i think they can feel my innate attraction to them, or maybe we suit good together - i'm very easy-going in a company and always positive and they are serius and stressed out, so they like my positivity.
if i'm ever single i should get myself an older man, i guess what attracts me in them is the freadom - the age difference is an obvious obsticle and therefore a perfect escape situation. they also are more emotionally smart and of course, since i'm younger, i feel some sort of power over them...
