I'm A Woman Who's Inlove With An Older WomanI have always liked associating with people much older than I. I also have always had feelings for women; especially teachers. So it is no surprise that at this point in my life (24 years old) I am smitten with an ex-lecturer who is now the Chair of my academic department at the college I attend. This "smitteness" has been going on for the past 5 years and seems to have no sign of slowing down. I think of the lady last thing before I go to bed and first thing when I rise in the morning. She is going to be 48 years old next 3 weeks so she's 24 years older than I. But to me she is so sexy, so beautiful, so intelligent, so warm, so caring that I can't help but want her to be more active in my life. I think we could be really happy together if we were in a relationship. I have a boyfriend and I love him to death but if this woman should come and say she wants to be with me in the next second I'm afraid I would leave him instantly. The only thing I'm really happy about in this whole preoccupation/obssession with her is that I've stop displaying that whole kind of stalker behaviour towards her. I used to go see, call, text and email her for no reason. I used to call her late at nite and then hang up the phone when I heard her voice. I used to feel so guilty and worthless after but I don't do it anymore. I'm glad that phase is over...now if I could only forget about her in a romantic regard and just think of her as an ordinary person.
IWANTTOGETBETTER 22-25, F 4 Responses 2 Sep 30, 2011