I'm Not Gay, I Swear, But:

I do a lot of "gay" things. I put the gay in quotes because I don't personally find these behaviors to be gay, as gay deals with the sexual identity and role the person your are boinking happens to be. For instance; if a guy is doing a guy he might not be gay. Same for girls. These behaviors might be lust driven and not intimacy and love driven. If a guy falls for a transgender is he gay? What about said t-girl and a girl? What if a guy fell in love with a woman who had a masculine appearance and dressed as a male and wanted to be thought of as a male?

First off I am male, and as a male I can see most readily from my male point of view. That is to say I identify as a male. What I've observed are other societal norms set by behaviors exhibited by the majority of others like me, or whom I am expected to be like, in public. I don't tend to feel my most comfortable within these confines, however, so I tend to lash out periodically by incorporating feminine behaviors, lingerie, make up, shoes, clothing, wigs etc. into my repertoire. Typically I'll do the more extreme in private.

I have always had a long slender body with alabaster skin, blue eyes, and blonde hair. I never gain weight no matter what I eat, so I've retained this body shape for the majority of my life. I was somewhat muscular for about 6 years while I was active in competitive football, but see no need for that type of training regimen now as I did not like that shape of body for myself. I feel like bulking up is something that is not attractive and quite odd, really, unless you are a competitive athlete. I just do yoga, palates, run on the beach, and body weight workouts with plyometrics and low weight dumbbells to tone my body. I have an 8 year background in capoeira and jui-jitsu, so I can hold my own when needed, but do not like to do that at all.

I have a pretty feminine figure by today's standards (despite my lack of boobage) but that isn't the goal, my goal is to look like a normal dude who doesn't move bales of hay for a living should look. On top of that, the consumption necessary for someone with my metabolism to keep a body maintained with that type of physique is unhealthy. I like to take care of my body and this has always been the case. I wax and get skin treatments regularly. I maintain a regimen at home as well. I get professional pedicures and manicures 2 times a month, but do them at home more frequently. I have gotten so many compliments on my feminine feet/toes and hands/fingers I can't even count. My girlfriends mom had no idea that I like to do these types of things and when she saw my foot for the first time she said it looked like a woman's foot. She stares at my feet from time to time and I catch her doing so, as if she doesn't mind getting caught. I'll get my toes painted and don't really care what color. I think no color has a gender... I mean the gender of a color?

That being said, I wear guys clothing most of the time in public. I might wear a blouse under a blazer if I find that cut to be more appealing than a comparable mens shirt. I also have paired women's open toed shoes and a matching belts with outfits that were of a more masculine slim cut. I have a couple of pairs of women's glasses and sunglasses that really do me justice. I mostly prefer to dress full on cross dress at home unless I am going out to an event where that type of behavior is more accepted, but I'll pepper in a combination of wearing thongs and stockings with my painted toes showing off a pair of christian louboutin's while wearing a fashionable suit from time to time.

This type of behavior has been rewarding because it has attracted a certain type of woman to me. Mostly foreign, fashion forward, cultural, and.... well, promiscuous. I choose to be very careful about who I am with and what I do and to whom, but with these more casual relationships I've been able to continue sexual behaviors that I've enjoyed since being a teen in adolescence. I get pegged and I love it. I love to give it as much as I like to give it. They go hand and hand quite well.

Guys, have you heard of this thing Aneros? It is ******* amazing! Since the age of 12 or so I've always been able to find a candle, cucumber, fingers, etc. to stick up my rump. Even before ever doing it the idea turned me on. The thought of a girl doing me with a phallus was even better. The idea of a guy in my *** was pretty hot also, but I am not attracted to guys like that and have not yet in life felt the need to seek out a relationship, sexual or otherwise, with a guy. Regardless, sticking penis shaped objects into my butt really drives my prostate wild and makes me *** buckets. It also makes me shoot like a bullet so I've got to be careful where I aim.

I guess if I ever fell in love with a guy I don't think I would fight it or be all crazily emotionally traumatized by it like most guys would because I see sexuality differently than the majority of the population. People should be with who they want to be with and feel like they should be with, regardless of gender. On that same note; femme guys should also be able to dress like a woman, paint their toes, wear expensive heels and lingerie, wear makeup, nice wigs, jewelry and take a ***** up their butt from a hot foreign hottie and not be called gay.
averagesjoe averagesjoe
26-30, M
1 Response Dec 16, 2012

Well said, I too greatly enjoy many of those behaviors associated with being gay. My only interest in men is for their hard **** which so miraculously becomes as hard as a bone after I suck on it for a minute. Inevitably, my desire for anal penetration overcomes me, and soon I am being pounded until hot loads shoot into my bowels...