I Try Not to Take Myself Too Seriously
I really do try not to take myself too seriously now concerning things I do for fun. I have spent much of my life taking myself too seriously in too many other areas. I had too much responsibility for a child from an early age. Felt too much need to control everything in my life. Felt I had to do everything I attempted too perfectly for my own good. Felt I always had to create a good appearance no matter what, be a little too strong, too organized, too competent.
As I have matured I have loosened up. A lot. It has been very good for me. I am not driven to do everything perfectly any more. Some dust bunnies in the corner? I'll get them later! I don't tell myself what I should do nearly as much any more. I don't worry about whether my efforts will be criticized. It's very freeing! I don't spend much time at all worrying about what other people are going to think about my creative efforts.
So, if I want to write silly poems on fun stories, I make some effort to have good metre and rhyme, but hey--I'm no Robert Frost! It's for fun! And writing silly and not-so-perfect poems takes me out of the mundane and troubled world for a little while. It's mostly for me! It lets me interact with fun people and gives me something to look forward to. Sometimes I sit here and laugh right out loud! I like that.
The same thing applies to role playing on stories. The secret actress in me can come out to play for a little while! I never would have attempted this earlier in life, because I know I'm not all that good at it. But now, the ghost of Sarah Bernhardt sits on my shoulder and whispers in my ear! Maybe I don't hear her so well! Maybe it's just silly and lame! Do I care? Not really. I'm chuckling and plotting, interacting with fine, fun people. Sometimes laughing right out loud! My cats think I've gone crazy!
I'm so grateful for the people I've met here who know how to have fun, who will risk looking a bit silly to have a laugh and forget their troubles for a little while. Thank you for playing with me. Sometimes laughter really is the best medicine.