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Archie's Love For Ebony

A LOVE THAT ONCE WAS & WILL ALWAYS BE. A LOVE THAT SHOULD NEVER HAVE HAPPENED BETWEEN YOU & ME.
 EBONY, THOUGH I WILL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN, AT LEAST NOT IN PERSON, MY HEART WILL ALWAYS BELONG TO YOU. THOUGH YOU'LL NEVER READ THEM, I WROTE SOME POEMS, EXPRESSING MY UNFAILING LOVE FOR YOU.


LIKE THE WIND THAT BLOWS BY ME,
SO DOES THE ESSENCE OF TIME.
MY FEET STAND FIRMLY ON THE GROUND,
WHILE MY MIND HOLDS ON TO YESTERDAY.
AS THE DAYS COME & GO,
I'M STILL IN THE TIME WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER.
I CANNOT ACCEPT TO BE WITHOUT YOU.
MY MIND WILL STAY WITH YOU ALWAYS.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,
FACE TO FACE, HAND IN HAND.
WHEN I SEE YOU, THERE I WILL BE.

ALTHOUGH MY BODY LIES HERE ON THIS MAT,
WITH YOU IS WHERE MY MIND IS AT.
LONGING FOR THE DAY TO COME,
WHEN WE CAN BE TOGETHER AS ONE.
PRAYING FOR YOU IS A DAILY THING,
PATIENTLY WAITING TO GIVE YOU A WEDDING RING.
PRAISING GOD FOR THE DAY YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE,
PRAYING YOU'LL BECOME MY WIFE.
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES YOU'RE ALL I SEE,
BLESSED BE THE DAY WHEN YOU'RE WITH ME.

HOW I LONG TO HOLD YOUR HAND
TO LOOK INTO THOSE DARK BROWN EYES
& SEE THE LOVE WHICH IS THERE
TO WHISPER SWEET THINGS IN YOUR EAR,
WHILE MY HANDS RUN THROUGH YOUR HAIR.
TO CARESS YOUR BREASTS
TO ALLOW OUR JUICES TO FREELY FLOW
TO PLANT THE SEED OF LIFE
TOGETHER, WITH GOD, MAY OUR LOVE ADORN
SO A CHILD MAY BE BORN
SHOWING A REFLECTION OF OUR LOVE.

I'VE WRITTEN OTHERS, BUT I DON'T WISH TO POST THOSE AT THIS TIME. THEY HAVE A DIFFERENT FLOW. THEY PROJECT THE SORROW & REGET FOR THINGS THAT HAPPENED & SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN. MY MIND IS A JUMBLED MESS, WITH FEELINGS OF LOVE & FEELINGS OF REGRET, GUILT & SHAME.....
WELL, THERE IS ONE MORE I'LL SHARE. IT COMES FROM THE HEART (AS THEY ALL DO.). & EBONY, IF EVER YOU SHOULD HAPPEN TO READ THIS, I TRULY MEAN WHAT THE FOLLOWING POEM SAYS.

HOW I WISH I COULD TURN BACK THE HANDS OF TIME
IF ONLY I COULD TAKE BACK THE SHAMEFUL THINGS I'VE DONE
TO REMOVE FROM YOU ALL THE PAIN I PUT YOU THROUGH
WHY IS IT I HURT THE ONE I LOVE THE MOST
HOW MY WORLD CAME CRASHING DOWN WHEN WE PARTED
WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER, I FELT AS THOUGH I HAD IT ALL
I WAS SO HAPPY WITH YOU, GOD & ME
ONLY I BLEW IT & NOW IT'S ONLY ME
I KNOW "HE" IS THERE TO ACCEPT ME, AS SOON AS I ALLOW HIM
I KNOW HE HAS FORGIVEN ME, FOR I HAVE ASKED HIM
BUT HOW DO "I" FORGIVE ME
YOU WERE MY WORLD, YOU GAVE IT MEANING
WHEN I LOST YOU, I LOST ME
NOW I WANDER AROUND AIMLESSLY LOST & CONFUSED
EBONY, CAN YOU EVER FORGIVE ME,
IT WAS MY LOVE I MEANT TO OFFER
LITTLEBOYINSIDE LITTLEBOYINSIDE 41-45, M 4 Responses Apr 2, 2012

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What happens to the self under the Christian faith? It is an important question as the self is the only thing we own. It is the only thing we will take out with us when we go out of this world. It is the thing we have to live with while we are here. You can'��t blame some people for not wanting to live with themselves forever. The self is not a good companion.
Modern psychology says three things about the self. Know thyself, accept thyself, and express thyself. I would have to reject this view of personality of the modern psychologist. What is the matter with these three things?
First of all they say, know yourself. But, you cannot know yourself studying yourself in relationship to yourself and others. You have got to know yourself in relationship to something beyond yourself, higher than yourself'�'God. You have got to know the purposes and that plan. The Christian faith teaches that you are a child of God and your destiny is to be made like the son of God. Second, they say accept yourself. But how can you accept an unacceptable self often full of conflicts, confusion, fears, resentments, self-preoccupation and guilt? To tell a man to accept himself under those circumstances is to tell him the impossible. You cannot accept yourself because yourself is not an acceptable self.
Third, express yourself. But you get a dozen people together, all of whom want to express themselves, and then what have you got?
What is the matter with these things? They lack one thing, and that one thing is the thing that the Christian faith would put into it: Surrender yourself, give back to God the one thing you own, lose it in a higher purpose '�' a higher will. What will happen to that self when you surrender yourself to God? Does He say, '��Now that I got him, I wipe him out?'�� Did God create us to annihilate us? Then what kind of a Creator would He be? The more I belong to God and His Kingdom, the more I belong to myself. Bound to Him, I walk the earth free. Low at His feet I stand straight before everything else. I lose my life, but I find it again. I am never so much my own as when I am most His. So the self is not wiped out. It is cleansed and because it will live with God, it can live with itself. And if you can live with yourself, you can live with others. I cannot only accept myself, but I can love myself. Christianity teaches self love. '��Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself.'�� You can love yourself because you love something beyond yourself.
I accept myself because I have been accepted by Him. I cannot reject what he accepts. I cannot despise what He loves. If He loves me, I love myself. So you find yourself in the place where you can take the second point of psychology, accept yourself. We do now. It is wonderful to be able to live with the self you can accept. Then third, you can express yourself. Why? Because Paul said, '��FOR ME TO LIVE IS CHRIST.'��
When I express myself, then I express Him. So I can express myself. I'��m a witness to what He is and what He does for me.
It is a wonderful thing then to lose your life in a will, a purpose, a higher purpose that your own, and it comes back to you again. The self is not wiped out. You now know yourself, you accept yourself, and you express yourself. These three things can be acceptable because in front of all three of them, you surrender yourself. Yourself in your own hands is a problem and a pain, but yourself in the hands of Christ is a possibility and a power. If you will surrender yourself to Jesus Christ today, you will find yourself again no longer a problem but a power, no longer a conflict but a conqueror. It is wonderful to be His because when you are His, you are your own.

I don't know what to say....This is your heartsong to her. Thank you for sharing. Powerful. Eloquent. Perfect.

THANK YOU. I ONLY WISH SHE KNEW HOW I REALLY FEEL.

I am sure she does.

THANKS. SHE'LL FOREVER BE IN MY HEART & MIND.

excellent poems, cut right to the heart. If she could read them I don't think you'd have a problem with her forgiveness. Better to have loved than never loved at all.