I Hate...that I Love Smoking

I hated them, never wanted to smoke them, my ex constantly made me feel like **** for not smoking like him, it was stupid for me to stand outside in the cold just to hang out unless i had a cigarette "a REAL cigarette, not those damn cloves p**ssy what the **** is your problem stupid b*tch, SMOKE A REAL CIGARETTE!"..... and being the stubborn female I am...i said FINE.....

now i love it... i hate when people tell me to quit! I dont want to! I like the taste, i like the smell, i like how it makes me feel, i like that its a completely legitimate reason to have as many breaks as you want during your work day....

and i HATE that I LOVE THEM! If i didnt like it so much, i wouldnt "stink" all the time, or "HAVE" to take breaks, OR SPEND ALL THE FREAKIN MONEY ON THEM!!!!

But i like them enough that i dont want to stop - the benefits of quitting outweigh the benefits of smoking...but the benefit of smoking is that i like it...and that is more important to me for some reason....
mauimichele mauimichele
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 6, 2010

I never hated it. I loved it from the first and still do. I don't want to stop, either, but I know the health risks are large. Do you smoke a lot? If you're doing 2 or 3 packs a day, it makes a difference, I think. I'm trying to hold mine to a half pack a day.