If Love Was That Easy
all my life iv known to find me self to be possive lately it become worse . . . Its become so hard now not to fight am crazy about her but every small tin that could effect me in any way is setting of a fuse in me to explode :( i dont know what to do . . . Its been for ever since this feeling came . . . When i say for ever i mean never . . . Its a billion times more worse then i ever have been . . . . I know i dont want the fight am just looking for attention . . I dont know wi i want so much but its driving me mad i say am at work and we ll stop talking for some time but am still going crazy missing her . . . . . To in love wit be my explination :( but i dont wanna give it up because it reminds me that i ******* love her . . . But then its horrible horrible horrible . . . . Then that one sec comes when the amount of attention i wanted comes . . . . . . . But it cant last :( i know il want even more the next second . . . . . . . . . Fallin for her . . . :( really really bad . . . If she read s this she may think that i dont apreciate her :( :( but i do some one tell me what to do . .