Just A Moment In Time.In all honesty, the majority of my thinking space is cluttered with daydreams, inanities, flights of fancy into the future and reinterpretations of the past. This is my internal reality most of the time. And most of the time I navigate this clutter without noticing it. But just recently, I found a sudden break, a sudden window into something else.
I was surfacing briefly from a daydream when suddenly a thought rose above the clutter and spoke up:
"I am nothing. I am a single cell in the body of the universe."
This thought was quiet, but it struck at a note inside me. And for a moment, just a space in time, I felt... expansion. A sense of expansion and emptiness. I felt an altered appreciation of myself, this self I label as 'me' and 'I'. Suddenly this 'me' seemed like nothing more than an interesting arrangement of phenomena. I looked at my hands and thought them very interesting, as though I were looking at them for the first time. It was beautiful and unexpected and liberating. I saw what a weight, what a burden it is to maintain this sense of self, this identity that I have created. It seems counter intuitive, but to feel that sense of being 'nothing' was profoundly grounding.
And then, as abruptly as it arrived, it slipped away. My thoughts resumed their usual routine. I took a pen and thought 'I must write this down!'
This is my first post. I don't know if it's really very interesting or relevant. But I was very pleased to find that there is a corner of EP devoted to Eastern philosophy and thought I would put this out there.
Best wishes to all who stumble across this :)
Roselette 18-21, F 5 Responses 7 Nov 26, 2012