Lost What I Once Loved

Long stoy short. My two sons have new wives and the new wives wont me out of the picture. They are winning. I was a great mother. I was there for them I fought there battels when they were little. Now I am being cast to the wolves. So many lies have been started about me and my son's have had to choose and they made there choice. I don't won't to be there lives I just won't to be a part of there lives. I am havign a hard time accepting they cant talk to me anymore. They say it always ends in a fight. They wont me to change for there wives sake. I am who I am I tried for several years to be what there wives wont and I still couldn't do anything right. I jumped when they said to I crawled when they said to I begged when my sons wonted me to. I even took blame where I didn't do anything wrong and I still have been turned on. Now I am not allowed to go to there family functions. The wives are best friends by the way. The family is choosing sides and its mine they are on. My sons only have there new wives family and each other, no one else. That isn't the way they were brought up. Family was first and formost. By the way during all this (a span of 8 months) my husband lost his mother (my mother-in-law of 21 years, whom I loved dearly), my best friend of a sudden stroke, audit by the IRS, my cat peed on my computer and I lost all my booking for a year, a warrent was issued for my arrest due to a guarantee that the booking could be recovered but wasnt, the bank messed up and sent the stop payment check back as an NSF and since the NSF was for more than $1500.00 that made it a fellany and I was looking at federal prision time. I have to file bankrupsy due to an old credit card debt, my father found an anurisum in the back of his head and had to have surgery, the dr. botched up the surgery and I had to diconect my father from life support and watch him dye. All this was going on and my boys couldn't and still haven't given me the time of day. They say it is too much trouble to put up with the stuff they have to put up with at there houses. One of my sond has had to move to Louisania that where his wife is from and the other wonts to follow to be by her best friend. My oldest has anounced that they are expecting and I got in trouble because I didn't receprecate fast enough. Like my cup wasn't overflowing on its own. I cna't win for loosing, and its letteraly breaking me up inside. My dr. has found stress problems with my heart now.  Sorry about that long story short thing.
NewClub NewClub
41-45, F
May 28, 2007