I'm Not Unhappy, I Just Like The Quiet Place In My Head To Be "quiet".

I don't like to be alone, or in an empty home.

I also don't like to have a lot of people around me. I get all mixed up when there are ever more than two. I get angry, anxious, irritable, fusy, and easily confused. Sadly I tend to reflect this on to others around me and create bad stuff.

So during parties and holidays I tend to vanish in to unused rooms or dark forgotten corners where people don't see me and watch happily from the outside. I'm not sad or depressed, I'm finding my quiet place where I can peacefully coexist with others in a larger group.

If I get over whelmed I may find a room away from every one and retreat into my tablet games a book or sleep.

Is this wrong? To me it is better than the alternative of irritating an annoying every one around me with my neurotic actions and nervous reactions to "perceived" actions "towards" me real or imagined.
Gr3mL1N Gr3mL1N
31-35, M
Sep 25, 2012