Few Years Difference Definitely

It's not necessarily a bad thing to like older women, there's a time when you realise what you think is right for you. I've realized I liked girls older than moi but not to the point of there being a ridiculously huge age difference. My previous lover was 24, near 25 and the one before 23 as a 19/20 year old. I don't mean like I think it's been like that all my life really. When I was 16/17 I pursued girls my age and genuinely had interest in them but that was mostly because older weren't accessible, if they were it might have been a different game. I'm not sure what motivates me to go after older girls. It's just that compared to girls my age and younger that I've had relationships with, they're more mature, they have better values, a stronger outlook on life and they're just far more interesting. Best of all I really feel like they GET me when I talk to them they don't just stare at me and hope they nod or say "cool" at the right time.

Past girlfriends made fun of the age difference but were also hard on themselves I found. Perhaps because of their life experiences but they put themselves down easily and the age thing always came up. "Aren't you going to be embarrassed parading a 30 something around your arm while you're still in your 20's", "Why do you like me, I'm so old", "Could you really love an older gal like myself?". How they felt about it and how I felt about it was very different. I really loved them, not so much because of their age but because of the way they interacted like full blown women, not teenagers looking to get some or anything. They're much much open, warm and comforting, they know what they're doing. It's more than the babysitter crush kind of deal.

A friend thinks it's because I'm looking for a replacement mother because I know I can't be the son she wants me to be and we don't have the best relationship and I don't share anything much of my life with her. All I know is that all my life I looked toward women who in most cases, happened to be at least slightly older than me, for advice or as someone to look up to, some kind of role model in a sense. They always told me nice things, how cute I was, just anything to make me feel great. I find most girls my age to be well... boring, immature and they lack that certain spark in their eyes I like to see. I'm more serious I suppose, eventually wanting to get married and have kids and when I see younger girls acting the way they do I think, that's not really a girl for me or that they couldn't be the mother of my kids or a good wife to share life with.

Whew! Writing this down, just sharing feels better. I like girls a couple of years older than me, I *prefer* them and I assume it. :)

Gladtuknow Gladtuknow
18-21, M
May 17, 2012