I Am An Alcoholic.

I am an alcoholic. Not the type that gets DTs, and has to drink at work to make the shaking stop. But, it's a nightly battle, whether or not to pop open a beer. And when to stop. I drink probably 5 or 6 days out of 7, 4-6 drinks at a time. Never get ****-faced drunk, never yell or cry or break stuff. Never drink enough to throw up. Also, when I HAVE to not drink, it doesn't bother me not to... like I had to take a 10 day antibiotic course, and the doctor said don't even use mouth wash for 36 hours after I took the last pill, because the antibiotic would react with the alcohol and make me sick. No problem. When there's nothing stopping me but a decision not to, though, I almost always cave.

I want to not drink so much, but I don't really want to stop. I want to lose weight, which would be possible by not drinking so much beer. I want my body to be healthier, because I'm looking forward to starting a family in the next couple of years.