Dear God.....................

I don't believe in you. You know this.....But I can you know this as well..I know that you know that Iv'e been rolling with the devil and in general have just been a real su*k. I know I can do thought if you wish to give me something to believe in. The devil tells me to look in the mirror and believe in myself but....I can't I can be better than all of the mungkhees in the world combined but I need help I need something thats just for me, to let me know I'm alive and breathing that this isn't just a dream............
Anto815 Anto815
46-50, F
3 Responses Sep 10, 2011

Message from God! he confirms you are alive! he says there is better places than depression to spend your time!

Thanks so much for the comment sorry it has taken so long to gt back..

Your prayer/story is good one... But I believe God is real and is a force to look to and know he does care even tho this world is nuttier every day ..and is more of a dangerous place.. so You have reached out to God... a good thing ..You can give up on Him but he won't give up on you... I found you as a friend of a woman who hasn't been here for a month or so .. her story then found you in her friends.. kind of like stalking.... just kidding .. but your story touched my heart. If you look at my profile, you will find a guy who writes sexy stories.. and has some good friends here,... You won't see a religious nut... But I know there is a personal God. he cares for me even tho I'm not obeying his desires for my life.. I think...

Thanks so much for the comment it meant so much. I have not been on because i hav been in and out of the hospital i just got home this thursday again mssage me so we can chat...Antonia

Ok will send you a message. from my Ep account ...If you look at my profile you will see some changes.. I no longer write any sex stories... My life changed about 3 weeks ago..

I wish mine weere a dream also, unfortunately it isn't......You know that saying "Fake it 'til ya' make"???? Thats basically what I'm trying to do right now because I have come to a point where I just don't care anymore......Talk to me a little more often.....You need to do more venting than you are......I'm here remember???? :)

Thanks i just don't want to be a bother. I am going through a hard time and i do need to vent so maybe i will message you.