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It hurts to learn that my BFF is wary of me and is now pretentious told me this recently.
It all happens when I have introduce her to work in my company as a part timer. Since she was my BFF, it would be a joy to have her especially since I am facing a failed marriage at the same time so I am happy she will be around me to support me emotionally.
Soon, things changed. She was hired to assist me and another colleague of mine "S" with data entry work and I was kind of feeling bad towards my another colleague for my BFF at times, threw temper at us for she doesn't like the work we passed down to her. As such, both "S" and I end up doing the work that my BFF is hired for. Still, I told myself it's ok for i already knew she has princess-temper just that i didn't know she would bring it onto the table at work.
Gradually, my BFF makes more and more friends in the company and kind of left me out. Maybe I am too sensitive, this is what I keep saying to myself and still I keep a good relationship with her. It was till mid year, i have noticed my BFF and "S" seems to have conflicts and begins to hate each other. I am clueless what is going on. But all i know at that time is I do not wan to get myself involved in their issue. Soon, I finds myself get stuck in bet them and I make a pact with "S" not to ***** about my BFF. It's easier for me to talk to "S" cause she is just a normal friend and colleague. But with my BFF, I kind of got lost how to get the message across that can she settle this herself and keep me out. I already have problem in my marriage, who am i to actually get myself meddle into other matters. With this thought, i slowly kept a distance away from my BFF instead of talking to her that I do not want to get involved in their dislikes of each other.
Soon, I realized that my BFF gives me attitudes, cold shoulder, ignores me, etc. I felt it. But i do not know how to react. At first, i didn't bother much, i still invited her for lunch, tea breaks etc but as she starts rejecting me even when i tried to start a causal conversation. Somehow i felt hurt, rejection and lost. I avoid confrontation with her so in the end, i cut myself away completely from her cause i really do not know how to manage the situation. And I hate the feeling of rejection. My husband cheated on me already. And I have learned that when our child is 5 months old. So I already have my own problems to deal with.
Recently, I have decided to talk to her since I am getting better emotionally. I try to resolve the issue bet us. She is still my BFF after all and i want to save this friendship. I asked her out for lunch to talk and she says it's pointless. I was hurt. We chat via msn cause she refuses to talk face-to-face. I have learn from her that she feels that I am the one not treasuring our friendship and she really hates "S". She hates "S" so much that she becomes wary of me cause I am quite close with "S" in office and out of work. She even cite and told me that she knows I went to some course with "S". I was surprised she knows but really, do I have to be open with anyone what I do after my office hours? She continues and say that she has been pretentious with me these few months ever since she finds me getting closer and closer to "S" which is her enemy now. She gives me cold shoulders and attitude all because she hates "S". But really "S" is her enemy not not mine.
I felt unjustly punished by her cause she hates "S". To me, why I can befriend with "S" is because we talk about other things beside work. We don't stress each other out with sensitive topic. at times, we still do argue but we let it go after that and not bear grudges later. Maybe because we are not BFF so we don't expect so much from each other. And my BFF and I expected a lot from each other and ended up hurting both of us. I retreated into silent when she needs to confide her anger about "S" and now I am being punished.
Now i felt that nothing stays forever, not love, not friendship, not kinship. I suddenly feel that I have to be very careful on my every move and every decision I have made. In this case, I should never have introduce my friend to come into my company and work and I would still have my BFF now.
Now, I am lost, for I do not know what is real and what is fake. I still wan my BFF but if she admits that she is pretentious towards me then what should i do???
It all happens when I have introduce her to work in my company as a part timer. Since she was my BFF, it would be a joy to have her especially since I am facing a failed marriage at the same time so I am happy she will be around me to support me emotionally.
Soon, things changed. She was hired to assist me and another colleague of mine "S" with data entry work and I was kind of feeling bad towards my another colleague for my BFF at times, threw temper at us for she doesn't like the work we passed down to her. As such, both "S" and I end up doing the work that my BFF is hired for. Still, I told myself it's ok for i already knew she has princess-temper just that i didn't know she would bring it onto the table at work.
Gradually, my BFF makes more and more friends in the company and kind of left me out. Maybe I am too sensitive, this is what I keep saying to myself and still I keep a good relationship with her. It was till mid year, i have noticed my BFF and "S" seems to have conflicts and begins to hate each other. I am clueless what is going on. But all i know at that time is I do not wan to get myself involved in their issue. Soon, I finds myself get stuck in bet them and I make a pact with "S" not to ***** about my BFF. It's easier for me to talk to "S" cause she is just a normal friend and colleague. But with my BFF, I kind of got lost how to get the message across that can she settle this herself and keep me out. I already have problem in my marriage, who am i to actually get myself meddle into other matters. With this thought, i slowly kept a distance away from my BFF instead of talking to her that I do not want to get involved in their dislikes of each other.
Soon, I realized that my BFF gives me attitudes, cold shoulder, ignores me, etc. I felt it. But i do not know how to react. At first, i didn't bother much, i still invited her for lunch, tea breaks etc but as she starts rejecting me even when i tried to start a causal conversation. Somehow i felt hurt, rejection and lost. I avoid confrontation with her so in the end, i cut myself away completely from her cause i really do not know how to manage the situation. And I hate the feeling of rejection. My husband cheated on me already. And I have learned that when our child is 5 months old. So I already have my own problems to deal with.
Recently, I have decided to talk to her since I am getting better emotionally. I try to resolve the issue bet us. She is still my BFF after all and i want to save this friendship. I asked her out for lunch to talk and she says it's pointless. I was hurt. We chat via msn cause she refuses to talk face-to-face. I have learn from her that she feels that I am the one not treasuring our friendship and she really hates "S". She hates "S" so much that she becomes wary of me cause I am quite close with "S" in office and out of work. She even cite and told me that she knows I went to some course with "S". I was surprised she knows but really, do I have to be open with anyone what I do after my office hours? She continues and say that she has been pretentious with me these few months ever since she finds me getting closer and closer to "S" which is her enemy now. She gives me cold shoulders and attitude all because she hates "S". But really "S" is her enemy not not mine.
I felt unjustly punished by her cause she hates "S". To me, why I can befriend with "S" is because we talk about other things beside work. We don't stress each other out with sensitive topic. at times, we still do argue but we let it go after that and not bear grudges later. Maybe because we are not BFF so we don't expect so much from each other. And my BFF and I expected a lot from each other and ended up hurting both of us. I retreated into silent when she needs to confide her anger about "S" and now I am being punished.
Now i felt that nothing stays forever, not love, not friendship, not kinship. I suddenly feel that I have to be very careful on my every move and every decision I have made. In this case, I should never have introduce my friend to come into my company and work and I would still have my BFF now.
Now, I am lost, for I do not know what is real and what is fake. I still wan my BFF but if she admits that she is pretentious towards me then what should i do???
By:
Sensaciones
Age:
26-30
