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Finally now I believe it when they say, love will come when you least expect it.
P.S This is quite long. Sorry sorry sorry.
This story contains lots of different sort of confessions and problems and I'd really like it if you could comment on one or all of them.
Firstly, I've always been into older guys even since I was little but for a few years it's been getting ridiculous. I'm 14 now and I'm only really attracted to adults. I know it sounds gross because they are a lot older than people expect but nothings ever happened because I've been single my whole life anyway. The main point is about finding love in odd places. Almost five months ago, I went to a christian camp with my friend, her brother and their grandmother. I'd heard a lot about it but even then it was so much different to how I expected it. When I got there, there were lots of good looking guys and everything but I didn't really LIKE any of them. This was a good thing for me because I get crushes really easily.
When we got to our group I realised how big it was and how many people were there. My friend and I walked in and we were greeted by our group leader. Right from the start I really thought he was perfect. It was like he was genuinely EVERYTHING I'd ever wanted in a guy, he was just perfect. Through that week my feelings became stronger and with the overwhelmingness of the religious stuff aswell I cried a lot and every time this guy and talk to me. Sometimes our other group leader did but mainly it was this guy. Now, I don't know whether it's because he was religious or whether it was combined with the fact it was me, but we got on well and he was so lovely. Imagine the lovliest man you can think of then times it by 10. As we talked I learned more about him and he was completely perfect, everything I've ever wanted. Nothing ever happened between us but he would compliment me a lot and we'd talk about personal stuff like feelings about family and life (I know it doesn't sound much but it was quite personal stuff) and towards the end of the week was when I realized I love him.
Anyways, to cut a very long story slightly shorter, we talked quite a bit and it was a really sweet ending and he was perfect perfect perfect. But we never saw or spoke to eachother outside of group (we sat outside for about half an hour while it was on but that didn't count.) I cried the whole way home and the whole week after that I was like a zombie and I couldn't do anything for crying. Even after 5 months I still think about him everyday and I'll most likely never see him again because I'll be in the higher group next year but I miss him so much it hurts like murder. He was 23 at the time which was horrible and we can't have contact because of the fact I met him as a leader. I really need someone to tell me it's going to be ok because whenever I try to talk to my mum I feel like she is annoyed and that she can't be bothered. Please help.
P.S This is quite long. Sorry sorry sorry.
This story contains lots of different sort of confessions and problems and I'd really like it if you could comment on one or all of them.
Firstly, I've always been into older guys even since I was little but for a few years it's been getting ridiculous. I'm 14 now and I'm only really attracted to adults. I know it sounds gross because they are a lot older than people expect but nothings ever happened because I've been single my whole life anyway. The main point is about finding love in odd places. Almost five months ago, I went to a christian camp with my friend, her brother and their grandmother. I'd heard a lot about it but even then it was so much different to how I expected it. When I got there, there were lots of good looking guys and everything but I didn't really LIKE any of them. This was a good thing for me because I get crushes really easily.
When we got to our group I realised how big it was and how many people were there. My friend and I walked in and we were greeted by our group leader. Right from the start I really thought he was perfect. It was like he was genuinely EVERYTHING I'd ever wanted in a guy, he was just perfect. Through that week my feelings became stronger and with the overwhelmingness of the religious stuff aswell I cried a lot and every time this guy and talk to me. Sometimes our other group leader did but mainly it was this guy. Now, I don't know whether it's because he was religious or whether it was combined with the fact it was me, but we got on well and he was so lovely. Imagine the lovliest man you can think of then times it by 10. As we talked I learned more about him and he was completely perfect, everything I've ever wanted. Nothing ever happened between us but he would compliment me a lot and we'd talk about personal stuff like feelings about family and life (I know it doesn't sound much but it was quite personal stuff) and towards the end of the week was when I realized I love him.
Anyways, to cut a very long story slightly shorter, we talked quite a bit and it was a really sweet ending and he was perfect perfect perfect. But we never saw or spoke to eachother outside of group (we sat outside for about half an hour while it was on but that didn't count.) I cried the whole way home and the whole week after that I was like a zombie and I couldn't do anything for crying. Even after 5 months I still think about him everyday and I'll most likely never see him again because I'll be in the higher group next year but I miss him so much it hurts like murder. He was 23 at the time which was horrible and we can't have contact because of the fact I met him as a leader. I really need someone to tell me it's going to be ok because whenever I try to talk to my mum I feel like she is annoyed and that she can't be bothered. Please help.
By:
RoRoBot
Age:
13-15
