I Hate My Husband1

I hate my husband! He cheated on me and now expects me to forgive and forget. I can't. I keep replaying it over and over in my head. Am I crazy. Last night I had a dream that I beat the ***** unconscience and was hiding out from the police. I think that I am losing my mind. I can't live with him and he will not leave me alone to live without him. What am I too do. Iwant to go out and get laid by a hot young stud that will rock my world....... but I am so pathetic that I don't know where to find him. I see why the bastard cheated on me........I would probably cheat on me too~!

pissedandhateit pissedandhateit
41-45
1 Response Mar 21, 2009

Ouch. I apologize for the selfish piggishness of this guy who hurt you. You're definitely being smart to not allow him to do that again. He broke your trust, how can he expect anything in return for that?<br />
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It is completely your decision whether to forgive. That doesn't mean giving him another chance to hurt you, though. I don't think humans CAN just forget. It sounds like if he expects that from you, then he doesn't understand how devastating his behavior was.<br />
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Just because you don't have some call guy to run to, doesn't mean you're pathetic. Not even close. It shows you have the decency to remain committed to a relationship, unlike him.<br />
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I recommend this post for a group like "I have been cheated on" or "looking for my soulmate" to connect with others who felt like you do now and moved on to find people who actually deserved their beauty, loyalty, and gracefulness.<br />
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As a Christian, I must recommend giving this to God. It always works for me to give my troubles to God to find peace and comfort amidst this broken world. I've acknowledged that Jesus is the Son of God who lived a perfect, sinless life and died in my place so that I don't have to be separated from God.<br />
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I am divorced and have been through some really hard times, but I am the person I am today because I trust God to show me the path of peace and true love, and I have found true love since then.<br />
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Bottom line: DON'T let his dispicable, weak actions tell you that you're not good enough. He made the mistake, and now he realizes what he left behind.